dancur16

almost done...

Tue, 08 May 2007 17:08:49 GMT

tonight my family is coming out so we can start to get packed and we are going to leave tomorrow after my court appointment lol..... ahhhh rugby house. good times getting busted.

i love college but i am ready to go home.

i love my theatre department. i get to direct a mainstage season showcase next year as a sophomore (which doesn't happen) and they are having a special acting recital for our class next year too. i love it. at the annual awards thing i won best actress (tied to a chair that is lol) and i was nominated for biggest diva lol... they didn't say anything too mean about me so that is really nice. my two friends and i went as the three flavors of enviga which is the department's energy drink.

i am looking forward to being a sophomore and being a Junior Fellow, being in a sorority, having a single, my awesome schedule, waking up for 11 am classes three days a week, directing plays all year, musical theatre club putting on a kick ass revue, making new friends, hanging out with my old friends, my choir director coming back from sabbatical, my guy friends being in frats, and chicken nuggets in the caf.

for this summer i am looking forward to seeing Jersey Boys, going into the city all the time, being in MATRESS!!, tie-dyeing, reading for fun, going down the shore, writing letters to my residents, finding out who my residents are, hanging out with the c-town crew, spending time in pennsylvania to see katrina, going to armonk ny to visit l.yee, being with my family, and relaxing.

yay!! i feel so old.... but not. eh life.

almost there...

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 06:46:22 GMT

how weird is it that in 10 days my first year of college will be over? what? where did the time go?

i had a really good time.

but right now i am so ready for it to be over because i am so stressed out right now. ahh.

this weekend was awesome. i loved everything from the chrysalis ball to the cast party to the dance concert to eating cookie dough. it was all lovely.

i wanna know if i made the park or not.... ughhhhhhh..... i hate waiting.

at least i am at school and i have a lot to keep me busy.

for example... tuesday night is the harvey awards! this is the theatre department's annual awards/roast/party/offensive gathering. soooo excited... but a little nervous... i'm afraid that i may get a slightly mean award if i get one at all. we shall see.

i can't wait to be in a sorority next year. we had this pre-rush event and it was so much fun and i am so excited for the real thing in august.

summer is going to be awesome.

very awesome.

opening night.

Fri, 13 Apr 2007 04:46:37 GMT

my lucky number is 13 and friday the 13th is my favorite day and my show opens today.

i have put everything i have and more into this show and i am loving every minute of it. it is exhausting and so uplifting at the same time. again this confirms that i want to do this for the rest of my life.

for added inspiration i watched "the montage" and it made me so happy. we had so much fun on that chs stage together. i am so happy we shared all of those moments together. and watching it now reminds me how important it is to treasure every moment of my shows now because this too will be over before i know it.

sigh. the preview tonight was awesome. i am happy about it because our wednesday dress sucked so tonight was like opening night for me because i had an awesome performance and people i care about were in the audience. so yea. that's my life. i love it and i am so happy i am here at bucknell.

yay 20 people from Jersey coming to see it on saturday!

for the future.

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 05:49:52 GMT

college is the most ridiculous thing. i can't get over how ridiculous my life is.

first off. i got cast as Hope Cladwell in Urinetown!!! yay!!! yay!!! yay!!! It is my favorite show and I have wanted the part since I saw the show when I was like 16 (i know such a long time ago lol). The dates of the show are April 13-16 at Bucknell University. come see it!!! Also, I have to admit Gary and Michelle really know their musical theatre so be really really happy that we are all lucky enough to have them in our lives. I can't wait for the show to start... rehearsals start in two weeks... soooo basically we'll be working on it all semester yay!! oh and the boy who played opposite me in spring awakening is playing opposite me in this too. which is fantastic because i am so so so so comfortable with him and we work fantastically together and he's a senior so this is my last opportunity for him to be my leading man.

second. i am a little lost right now due to the fact that my girlfriends are all in crew and all have practice at 6:00 am everyday and 9:00 am on saturday. so they don't stay up late anymore and they don't go out on friday. this is a big dilemma and i find that i am becoming one of the guys. and i don't mind that. it reminds me a lot of home because one of the guys is gay and two of them i've hooked up with....lol i love it. also, i am making friends with some older people and people who are outside of my best girlfriends here but it still is Just so difficult because i feel left out. they do everything together and i am a sort of an afterthought at times. like if they all go to a crew party i have nothing to do but if i went to a theater or a cappella party they all still have each other... ya see? tis a puzzlement.

third. i am sick. i skipped all my classes today and slept, hence why i am up now. i did not change or leave the confines of mcdonnell hall all day long. it was wonderful. tomorrow though is back into the swing of things.

fourth. i hate being stage manager for this show. i can't wait until The Lover is over. ok i tried it and i don't have it in me lol i Just don't like it. i give the sheehan sisters mad props because i don't know how they do it lol.

fifth. i hooked up with a friend and it was awkward but not... i dunno. he's immature and ridiculous but a great guy and a really good kisser.lol at some point in the next four years we might have a really good relationship but definitely not right now. oh and i decided unless someone super-amazing-can't live without comes along i don't need the hassle of a boyfriend right now. i mean don't get me wrong it would be great but unless it feels totally awesome i'm not gonna do it and i'm not even going to be a serial hook up-er. cuz we all know i've done that one too many times and i'm done with that. period.

sixth. we had a bachelor party for david this weekend. he is now officially dating margaret... the upperclassmen who lives on his hall and is not allowed to date anyone on the hall because it is in her contract for her Job... i don't have romantic feelings for david anymore but my biggest fear when we were together was that he would cheat with margaret and now they are dating it's really awkward for me to watch that no matter what. i feel really weird watching them together.... but david and i are great friends and he has taken on the role of watching out for me and such which i appreciate a lot.

seventh. last night all my guy friends went to smoke pot outside. and i was sitting in the hallway and the smell of pot started coming through the heating vents in the hall and soon the entire building smelled like pot! so my friend tara and i quickly called them to tell them to stop doing that because all the RAs could smell it. but they said they were smoking outside so it made no sense as to why the whole building reeked... turns out they were outside by where the vent is that sucks all the air from the outside to the heater lol they are so stupid. thankfully, no one figured out it was them but needless to say they will never smoke up there again.

eighth. i am applying to be a Junior Fellow for the Arts College and the interview process has begun. i want it so bad i can taste it and so do seven other people from the college. that's a problem because there are only three spots. yikes yikes yikes. i really have to step up my game if i want the position. hopefully that will all work out.

ninth. i feel like i bitched a lot in this entry. but even so. a bad day here is still pretty freaking awesome.

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Sat, 09 Dec 2006 22:48:32 GMT

i love school but i am ready to take a break. from some of the people and classes and caf food... it will be nice to have a month of nothing... or will it? lol

i am so close to going home. i need to finish revising a paper and do a performance and thats it but it is taking a long time to get there. bleh...

on thursday i will be home with my bucknell friends and we are going to go to a diner and sbucks and funk and standard and drive around ctown style. so psyched to show them everything and everyone's house and all the good stuff.

the J key on my computer has officially stopped working. so i have to copy and paste it all the time.... sucks!!

we did a secret santa with my friends and my present was a custom designed t-shirt my friend stef got for me and on the front it says "All I want for Christmas..." and on the back it says "...is a Jersey boy." hahahaha because i always complain that i have not met a boy i like from the east coast and such so i thought it was hilarious that she made me a shirt that said that. lauren loved all the funk and standard stuff i got her and all the girls loved the flirting 101 book.

last night mary slept over and it was fun. tonight is my last saturday here until after break and we are definitely going out tonight... to where? i have no idea yet. anyways i can't wait for christmas and NEW YEARS.

for real ice cold.

Sat, 02 Dec 2006 07:48:31 GMT

and things just got a hell of a lot more interesting....

i can't wait to bring jen, stef, and lauren home with me! i am so psyched.... i am bringing them home after our acting class final and they are staying the night... the next day we are driving stef and jen to the airport and then lauren's parents are picking her up... if only justine could come too! i can't wait to bring them to a real diner and show them my house and my room and my dog and all of my friends (who are home)!

i have three classes and then my semester will be over. then i have a geology final.... a philosophy paper due... and then a final performance... i am going to have so much free time on my hands during finals week... love it love it love it... christmas movies and hot chocolate and cookie making and secret santa exchange...yay holidays

today there was a storm and it shut off our power and the sky was green and there was horizontal rain... really exciting stuff.

oh and tonight i found out that i don't like rum. at all.

yay december!!!!!!!

happy thanksgiving!!

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 06:05:36 GMT

i heart cranford in all it's random glory.

since i came home i have seen almost everyone on the face of the planet and more... including Ben Folds!

good times with short hair.

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 06:38:08 GMT

sometimes talks about the future and how you are going to go into business together after college is more important then sleep. ok maybe not sometimes... it's all the time.

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 17:47:51 GMT

so i got cast in cocktail theatre yay! that will be my third show before the end of my first semester. sweet.

yesterday with the arts college we went to philly. while in philly, we went to the philadelphia museum of art (where rocky ran up the stairs) and then we saw the pillowman at the wilma theatre. wow i loved the pillowman. the acting was superb and i picked up so much of the technique that the actors were using. it made me happy that i could recognize and describe it. after the show we shopped for a while on south street. i really did not enjoy south street as a whole. i feel so much safer in nyc. but the last store we went into i lovedddd and i bought some good stuff. i really like living in the bucknell bubble. it is just nice and safe and adorable.

ahhhh ej got me tickets to see ben folds in concert for my birthday yay!!! omg my birthday is in exactly seven days. i am going to have a kickass birthday weekend.

oh and i'm going to leave on sunday for thanksgiving break instead of waiting for wednesday. so yay two more days off of school!!

jeez there is so much i have to do between now and break. i better get working on all of it... peace!

so awesome.

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 18:38:14 GMT

this week is tech week and as you all know tech week is hell. it is going to be one of those weeks where i have to keep reminding myself that this is my passion and that i love to do it because i do. but sometimes it can be difficult if i have a paper or lots of hw due the next day and i'm standing onstage at midnight waiting for a light cue lol. but i love it so much. i think the show will be fantastic especially because the people are and wow did i pick the right department they are so awesome. i love the profs so much.

i saw kanye west in concert this weekend and he was...ok. i thought he put on a great show BUT he showed up and hour late, there was no opening act, he only played for 45 minutes, and there was a girl who was so drunk next to me that she kept resting on my shoulder... and mind you this was on the floor so there was nowhere i could go to get away from that. but that was fun and the rest of the night was definitely fun too. seriously i do not mind that greek life is so big here because frat parties are a fun place to go and dance when there is nothing fun or exciting going on back at the dorm. so yea i love my school.

this weekend is parents weekend and it is also my show. yay. i plan on watching the office and grey's when i'm not onstage to catch myself up on everything i've been missing during the rehearsal process.

oh and i can't wait for the cast party of this show and the funny thing is... it's going to be on a weeknight lol oh theater people... i have really gross bruises from my beating scene but i'm not going to tell the guy who beats me because then the scene will lose the believeability... oh well my legs can take it. and with the costumes and stuff i think it will be ok cuz i have soooo many layers.

ok not only did we get kanye and jack's mannequin but for the spring concert we are trying to get either the fray or goo goo dolls.... i know you're jealous!! lol seriously that would be amazing either way.

hopefully i will survive the week.

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 17:06:35 GMT

ahhhhh ready to go back to school my parents are driving me crazy!!! ahhh!!! i miss sleeping on jen and lyee's floor all day saturday and being annoyed that i have rehearsal until 11 and getting ready to go out in the boy's bathroom and hanging in the library and send me on my way!! ahhhh i had no idea i had so much freedom at school until i came home...

aww

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 16:35:59 GMT

my horoscope for today:
You feel more grounded when you're at home these days. If you want to socialize, why not invite a few very close chums over so you can congregate around a board game? A little silliness seems inspired.

and i'm going home! yay!!

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 03:39:37 GMT

ahhhhhh i am soooooo close to home yet so far away!!!!! the only thing standing in my way now is a geology midterm... so close.... tomorrow at this time i will be home in c-town. woot me.

Tue, 10 Oct 2006 06:00:04 GMT

-no more condy rice. she has other things to worry about now like north korea.
-i can't wait to be home on friday.
-i had another fabulous weekend here.
-i love my friends here.
-i love how they say to me "daddy i want an oompa loompa now!" because it reminds me of home
-i never thought i would listen to the backstreet boys and nsync this much in college.
-i love dance parties
-i love only having one class tomorrow.
-yay bucknell.

a couple of things...

Fri, 29 Sep 2006 06:33:31 GMT

1) Kanye West is performing at mt school on October 21!!
2) Plain White T's are coming to my school November 18!!! (....which is kinda ironic in a way)
3) I just watched the Notebook and I love that movie.
4) I love it here.
5) I only have two classes tomorrow.
6) Grey's was sooooo good tonight.
7) I have play rehearsal from 6:30-9:30 on friday night. bleh.
8) We are having a Punk Rock party friday night.
9) I feel like last weekend just ended and another is about to start!
10)I really love my friends here except only like 2 live on the East Coast.
11)I am sad I don't get to see Sufjan Stevens tomorrow.
12)Next weekend Lewis Black will be here!! best ever.
13)The weekend after that is Fall Break. yay!
14)I can't wait to eat real food. It will be fantastic. Well,basically I only miss real pasta and chicken. Oh and pizza.
15)I definitely 10,000% made the right decision in choosing Bucknell.
16)But it will be nice to be home in a couple weeks.

whatever and amen.

love and memories.

peace and happiness.

jf

remember everything??

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 14:21:34 GMT

well ej just left my dorm room. she had been here for friday and saturday night.... the best nights of the week lol. and well.... we had an absolute blast....

when she first got here me, ej, my mom, and mary went out to dinner that was fun! then my mom left and we went to the "preppy party" upstairs but too many people came so it was not great but then we went to 7th street cafe and listened to some bands play and that was awesome then we went back upstairs and ej fell asleep in the lounge lol everyone thought she had drank too much and that was the reason she was sleeping... no... that's just how she is lol... so i woke her up and then we went to bed...

saturday started out with talking about everyone lol and then we went to brunch with the boys from upstairs... we had an awesome brunch then decided to spend the rest of the day (we went to brunch at like 12:30 so what was left of the day) in my bed watching the office on dvd. gooooooood stuff. then i went to musical theater rehearsal and ej stayed in my bed lol then we got ready and finally went to dinner pretty late because a lot of people went to the mall...

then after dinner (dinner was awesome by the way) we went upstairs and watched the office with some people then we tried to go to the receiving end of sirens concert but it was taking too long and we got a lil bored so we went to 7th street cafe again. we started to play rummy and were having a grand ole time when some of my friends started coming back from a party and let's just say they needed some guidance as to where they were going lol so we got them back to the dorm and had a huge dance party... then we basically hung out there until about three then we went to my room and someone visited us and we went to his room lol and the short of it is we were in bed by 4:30. typical saturday evening.

fun things:
-ryan shovlin
-the office
-"life's a croc"
-ryan shovlin
-being a prospie
-gertrude
-german barbie girl
-britney spears music plus lingerie
-greasy boys
-dallas
-fave peeps at bucknell
-"what's ej stand for?"
-ryan shovlin
-"so there's a great room to make out in and it's definitely free right now..."
-unnecessary mom-ness
-"i'm a virgin...i can't believe i'm telling you this but..."
-in the flesh!
-hey there delilah
-telling people you go to yale
-...and a lot of other stuff that will stay at bucknell.

....omg ej just spent the weekend with me!!! it was actually one of my fave weekends here so far... so good job coming now lol

i love it here and so does ej. best ever.

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 05:42:39 GMT

this weekend i...

-saw bela fleck and the flecktones in concert. they were FANTASTIC.
-saw Jack's Mannequin in concert and Andrew McMahon was like 3 feet in front of me for about an hour.... sooooooo goood..... ugh just awesome
-went to a "pajama party" instead of an 80's mixer.
-went on an arts college retreat to more of the middle of nowhere then we already are.
-did my laundry
-made my bed
-did a minimal amount of homework
-had an ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS time.

bucknell > i could have imagined

(i hope you get the symbolism lol)

ps- download the hush sound. they are fantastic too... they opened for jack's.

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 05:30:06 GMT

i love college... i really do....

i am just having a blast...

...yea...

hahahaha....

good stuff.

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 17:31:44 GMT

ok just a side note i was researching this play... spring awakening... and turns out that there is a musical adaptation of it that is going to open on broadway in december.... how ridiculous???? and the girl playing my part in it dropped out of playing eponine in the les miz revival to do this... this is sorta insane and hilarious because the story is sooooo cracked out....

ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 15:22:55 GMT

ok well i just got the lead in the bucknell university mainstage production of Spring Awakening!!!!!!! ahh!!!!!! i'm so excited!!!! i didn't get any leads in high school and here i am with a lead in my first college show!!! oh yea and in the show i get raped, beaten, a shotty abortion, then i die. yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!! come see it the last weekend in october!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 20:50:57 GMT

the cafeteria has not had cracklin' oat bran for the past three days.... i might die.

best week of bucknell

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 00:04:55 GMT

this week was fantastic.

1) i just went to the cheerleading interest meeting and i totally could do it but i don't think i can with all the theater i want to do.

2) i made an awesome friend!!!!! her name is jen and she is from san francisco. basically she is me but from the other side of the country.

3) i was in a show yesterday. ok the cap and dagger drama society put on a staged reading of the complete works of william shakespeare abridged. you didn't have to try out and there were only four rehearsals. the guys who directed it were seniors and they were the BEST. i had such an amazing time. never in my life have i done a show in that period of time. and the show went over soooo well.... not to mention i had some fantastic parts. one of them was staying onstage all intermission (ask for details lol). the show is supposed to run two hours and ten minutes after about seven weeks of rehearsal.... we did it in an hour and a half when we performed. and not only did we do it fast but we did it almost completely from memory. well everyone was holding a script but we were mostly off book which is insane to do in four days. and my family came to see me! yay! that was great! and i was initiated into the bucknell theatre department. there is a warm up here that is beyond any description i could give you it makes me laugh so much and i love it and i hope i get to do it again in the show in october (if i make it!!) i don't want to post it here because it is dirty (ask if you wanna know what it is.... you really wanna know seriously you do) omg and one of the senior directors is directing a mainstage show in february so now he knows me! and the other director said if i do not get a part he will make sure i am assistant stage manager so i can hang out during rehearsals and such. i love this department. oh! my friend kerri and i are thinking of starting an experimental theater club that puts up staged readings in a short amount of time just like we did this week and we definitely are going to get an advisor so we can put on a 24 hour play. that's when you start off by writing the play and end the 24 hours with performing it. can't wait. i only have good things to say about that experience.

4) i'm trying out for the musical theater club revue on friday. i'm already in it i just need to audition to see what part in what song i'll have.

5) i'm trying out for the fall play tomorrow night. i'm psyched and scared out of my mind. i'm happiest when i'm doing theater and this is what i'm getting money to do here so hopefully i'll get something. i'll be a tree i really don't care. the show is cracked out though lol but would be fun.

6) i have less work now than i did in high school. no joke. but the difference is i actually do it lol.

7) i love drunk people except when they mess around with my computer in the middle of the night or walk into my room and wake me up on a wednesday night lol oh life... there is some crazy stuff that goes on around here. crazy stuff.

8) i saw snakes on a plane last weekend and that was so much fun.

9) i have a new favorite cereal that i eat at every meal.... cracklin' oat bran. BEST EVER.

10) mary brown is good i see her a lot actually and we have choir together. her friends on her hall are cool and i have one of them in one of my classes.

11) my earliest class is 9:30. three days a week it's 10. lol oh college...

12) i wanna be able to not wear flip flops in the shower. that would make me happy.

13) i might actually join a sorority next year. cuz i think there is one that might fit me perfectly.

14) the tks here are fricken sweet.... and i would say so is about 60% of the general population on top of that... so i'm pretty set. but i still don't have a lot of awesome friends.... i have like three. but hey that's a start.

call me email me text me i have so much free time!

peace

Thu, 31 Aug 2006 03:10:34 GMT

I am in the coolest staged reading of the complete works of william shakespeare (abridged) EVER. we started rehearsal today and we are performing on saturday... such a whirlwind awesome experience!!!!

the two senior guys who are directing it are so much fun and you all know how much i love to be on stage. woot start of my theater career here. (not saying i had to try out for this or anything cuz i didn't the start of that stuff is monday please all pray i get in!)

but yea so we had tonight tomorrow friday and maybe a rehearsal before the show on saturday... and that's it.... how crazy? best best coolest thing ever.

(if only i had some friends) lol

(no seriously)

(i really don't have awesome friends yet)

(but i'm getting there)

peace and love.
jf

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 15:29:22 GMT

ahhh!!!!!!!!!! i made choir!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay i have a purpose on campus!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!

my classes seem to easy to be true and i'm going to wal mart tonight. what has become of my life???

cafeteria is actually awesome here.

my mom already sent me two batches of oatmeal cookies. best ever.

i've never been so bored in my life i have so much free time lol

i'm trying out for three a cappella groups this weekend.

i sorta don't have friends but i sorta do.... yea.... i dunno i'm sure that will work itself out.

call me text me! my classes end at one today!

please i'm bored i will def respond.

peace and love and happiness

jf at bu

7 days.

Sat, 12 Aug 2006 04:52:48 GMT

i just read all my back entries from the past year and i realize how much fun i have had and how much i am truly going to miss everyone. the memories i made this year are so incredible and i am so blessed to have made them. i love how i accomplished all the things on my to do lists in my entries and that on february 23 i wrote an entry saying that i really wanted to go to bucknell. and then another entry written exactly four months before next friday about how that will be my first night in the dorm room and stuff. it is so soon. here's to the end of the beginning.